./hype kills SUCKA !

kidsister.

2008-11-11T20:52:00.000-05:00

i pretty much love this girl! ;D

What Doesnt Kill U, Only Makes U Stronger ...

2008-10-26T22:21:00.002-04:00

2day ws an outrageous day. im basically on lock again. after 9pm, my phone is on lock. meaning I cant make any outgoing calls or txts & vice versa. (exhale) like I told my bf, this only a bad trial in my life im needing to surpass. once i get my job & that check from school & im gone from this so called home, im free. i wont be miserable. i wont be bothered by the ppl who bringing me dwn only 2 tell me im wrong & wont survive in the real world. with ppl like my bf, I can do anything & go anywhere & still achieve my goals in life. still maintain myself. if i fall, he's there to pick me bck up even if he himself has fallen.

i love my bf with all my life. i know at times he thinks i dont care or appreciate him. but i honestly do. i wouldnt know what 2 do if he wsnt in my life nemore. we are meant to be. as crzy as it may sound. but we are. so im def trying to do my best for us. he's already doing his thing for us, but now its my turn 2 do so also.

(exhale) i dont think i have anything else to say. im sorta happy with my life. i'd be more happy if i wasnt so locked in. (exhale). this is only the beginning. i'll live through it. honestly.

b-ez ; deuces

new blog?!

2008-10-23T22:43:00.002-04:00

yea im def gonna make a new blog. check for the link :D

bck & livin it up!s

2008-10-21T20:39:00.003-04:00

so i know ive been absent for a while now but im bck! computer ws busted!!! & i needed to get a new one =[ bummer! but newho. my clothing line will be up & running. thanks to my new partner, kayla. we're currently deciding on as 2 what else we will be adding to the lines. for now we got dresses. & we're contemplating on shoes & bags =]. so look out for that girls. & guys. my bf will be helping us out with the mens line as well :D

speaking of. me & blue are doing great. 10 months & strong kiddos. :) hehe.

i think theres nothing else i need to add up here. its been a while. nothing new has happen to me. yall know the story of me & my moms. smh. school is driving me nuts. its 2 much. (sigh). but im getting by.

bdays coming up nxt wk. my 3 bestie's & my cousins bday is coming up. more money 2 spend lol.

thats its for now. until the nxt post.

much love.

Its Great 2 Be Bck (not)

2008-08-28T20:58:00.004-04:00

ok so i havent been on. big frkn deal. im thinking of shutting this sht down completely. smh. now everyone has a blogspot. u cant be on anything without someone jumping off on it. examples: myspace. facebook. them sites wsnt poppin 2 or 3 yrs ago & now everyone & they mama is on it. lmao smh. its 2 much. the inet is drivin me nuts. (sigh)

so whats been shakin with me for the past 3 wks?! SHT!! ive been on lock for 3 months. i havent seen my bf in 2 months. school started yesterday. what a btch it ws! i kinda learned how to drive & i crashed the car. hit right smack into a pole. but i must've had a guardian angel with me cuz i ws ok. without any scratches. cant say the same for the car. lmao!

my summer ws sht. i didnt find a job. no one hired me. i got into multiple fights with blue. my moms drove me crzy. i didnt do sht!!!my moms would not let me out the house. like for nothing! so im broke. i still own a razr. the sht is super wack. smh. ( deep breath ). but yea. thats it. i just wanted to rant & stuff on the blog since i cant rant in reality.

im addicted 2 u

2008-08-01T22:53:00.003-04:00

me & my girlie nana aka miss annie panties taken bck in march. this pic ws taken unexpected lol. fool wearin my specks & im on the lx lol.

(exhale). gd evenin ladies & gents. im here sulking cause i could be out right now. its a friday night. its nice out. but no im stuck in a hell hole. 26 more days til school starts tho. cant wait for that. i need to keep myself busy for the school yr since i only got 2 days of classes. & i will not be stuck home. hell fckn no!

newho, alot of ppl are returning bck into my life. its weird. cause its been 2 yrs since ive spoken to most of these ppl. but there's 1 particular person im excited they came bck. his name is franky. & well lets just say he ws my first real crush. he's real sincere. & stuff. we didnt wrk out cause 1) he ws always busy with wrk school & dancing. 2) he ws diggin his ex-girl as well as me. 3) some btch who i went to school with ws sayin sht to him & sayin how i ws talkin about him & 4) b/c i wsnt so "out-going". he didnt know alot about me. but whatev's. he ws the cutest. all my friends thought he ws fine as hell & my mom loved him! seriously. but as i said, we didnt wrk out. :/ but yea im excited he's bck cause now he's been hittin me up non-stop lol & its cute. if i find a pic of him i will post it :)

another guy who's come bck is my love ajay. he's a singer & what not. dude is signed to ryan leslie's label. u know what that means?! freebies! lol. nah but im tryin to squeeze in a day 2 chill with him b4 pandemonium occurs & i cant chill with him nemore. but im tryin to see if he can get me studio time or something. & also i got my clothing line coming soon. just gotta get the t-shirts made. their coming i swear lol. but yea. i need a slogan. something thats real catchy u know.

until the nxt blog ...

u know u love me | xoxo ;

& what doesnt kill u, only makes u stronger.

2008-07-27T18:10:00.000-04:00

so lets see. where do i begin. (exhale). well me & blue got into a huge ass argument. we ws close & i mean soooo close to breaking up. smh. but im over ricky. def over him. we're just real cool right now. um newaysz i ws suppose to head out to PA today. & so what happened?! well my step-niece wanted to bring her bf along on the trip. i dont even know this guy u know & i feel that sht aint right for her 2 do. so no one ws sure if she ws gonna bring him. then 2day my brother calls & stuff & my mom asked who ws going again & when he said my step-nieces bf, she exploded. saying that aint fair to me & my other niece. cause we not bringing bf's so y should she. & they got into this big ass argument! & my mom ws like fck it shes not going. this that & the 3rd. so i called up my niece 2 ask her if she ws going. i wsnt gonna leave without my niece u know. so my brother calls my ex-sister in law & he ws screaming at her. i mean the nigga ws cursin like no tomorrow. i mean i kinda feel bad cuz thats $600's gone. but same time that sht aint fair. i mean i know niggas dont like my bf, but sht im older then her & for her to bring her bf isnt right. plus i heard her mother & my brother met the dude just the other day. like wtfckie?! smh. & also its hella bad out here & in PA. its raining & thunder storming. smh. i guess it wsnt meant for us 2 go. oh well.

add my bf's group page ;D u know u want to hoe =)

until then | u know u love me ;

Nothing's Bigger Than Love

2008-07-26T15:42:00.000-04:00

U Dont Know What U Got Til What U Got Is Gone |

I ws in such a fckd mood last night. i ws feeling crappy. i shouldnt be feeling for another guy when the man i got now would do anything to stay with me. i felt so bad cause we ws txting lst night like around 2:30am & he says this : "OMG. DID U FEEL ME JUST KISSIN U? (my pic is his wallpaper on his phone) I WS KISSIN YAH PIC O.DEE & I TOLDCHU THAT I LOVED YOU THRU DAH PIC & THEN I HUGGED YOU ... IM GONNA MARRY YOU. WELL GD NIGHT<3 ILL BE DREAMIN BOUT YOU. IMA BOUTA CRY. U MAKE ME SO HAPPY" & i ws cryin my eyes out. cause here i am thinking our relationship ws bombing & not going newhere & he comes out with this. im i a fckd up person for this? smh. but if it satisfies u enough, the other guy & me dont talk much nemore. since he came to my house, he's been xtra busy & he dont answer my calls or my txts. so like yea. i think it ws a test. testing me 2 see how well i truly love my bf. :| (exhale). alot of ppl is sayin to follow my heart but it seems my heart is on vaca cause im surely not gettin emotion from it. my mind sure has decided. but its half & half. half wants to me to be with blue the other half to be with ricky. & ppl is tellin me to play blue. but im too grown for that sht. but yea i realized i got a gd thing right now. the only thing that will get us to break up is the situation with my family. my fam wants nothing to do with him. mentioning him will have us in arguement. & i dont need that. oh but when she met the other guy, she ws fascinated with him cause he's handsome & speaks perfect spanish. smh. btch. she would not stop askin questions about him. (exhale). the btch is gettin me tired already. but neways ...

i dont think im going on friends lock. but keep on adding ur emails for future reference. ;D so lets see 2day i almost had a heartattack. not literally but like ok in my bank account i got about $123 in it. i had $347 but me & my bf had a summons & i had to pay for both tickets & that sht left me halfway broke. so i ws suppose to be receiving a check from the I.R.S. but my mom took it & told me to cash it. but i couldnt cash it since i didnt have $300 in my account. so i deposited & then took it out. but the sht ws my mom ws with me to cash the check. smfh ! but whatever she thought i had the $300 in my bank account. but i couldnt keep that money. even though it came in my name. its not mine. i feel like cryin b/c of it. cause im so tryin to get out of this place & move in with my bf. smh. i ws almost cryin in the car on my way bck home. cause i need that $300 more then she does. :'( i prolly wsnt meant to have that $300. thats how i look at it. (exhale).

so im going to dorney park monday. tomorrow me & the fam head out to pennsylvania on sunday. so im here packing clothes. im not sure how long we're gonna stay in PA. but i think its until tuesday or something. duh im taking massive pix ! ;D just not sure what ima do with my hair. cause my cousin is in ohio & i needed to french braids to be done. ill just do 2 "doo-doo" (as she calls them) braids lol.

until then | u know u love me | xoxo ;

FRIENDS ONLY !

2008-07-26T00:28:00.000-04:00

im bouta make my blog prvt. only b/c there r things i will be posting that i wouldnt want other ppl to see. so yea if u wanna be added, just cmnt me with the email u signed up ur blogspot with ;D k thnx !!

I Like My Nites 2 End A Bit Nasty

2008-07-18T23:50:00.000-04:00

muhahahaha ! guess who the fck is bck ?! yea yea yea not u. BUT ME ! ;D get familiar. the most hated & most loved girl is here. yes sir !

so 2day what i wanna talk about is something other then whats going on in my fcked up life. so this morning i ws watching the wendy williams show. im here like :| whatttt?! she got a talk show ?!! where the hell ws i ?! lmao. ( too busy watching tyra & oprah thats where ). but um its ws ok. it ws her bday. so it ws a bday show. but i feel shes trying to be like tyra. but it dont wrk for her. so as a gift for the audience she gave out gucci sunglasses. i mean they aint poppin. they ws ok looking. but everyone in the crowd ws cheering like no tomorrow. but of course the majority of the audience were black. ( no im not being racist ). but tell me y all the blacks were cheering like crzy & the white ppl like gucci frames? i have like 4 pairs at home. lol. i mean seriously. but it ws a gd segment. i ws diggin the sunglasses that the lady came to present. prolly get me some diors. i mean the knock-offs are like $20. lmao. but nah other than that it ws gd. running for six weeks now.

oh i totally 4got to mention when i went to 5th ave lst wk with the hubbersz, i rememberd seeing the store PUCCI. now i got this joke thing where i say EAT MY PUCCI. i want the shirt by the way so if anyone gets there hands on that let me know :) i ws like omg pucci !! lmfao ! so imagine it be me saying omg p**sy ! haha.

but no um so i hope most of yall know LALA from myspc. u know the 80s fashionista ! shes crzy cool & has a crzy sense of style. but neways im gonna link her blog. its really cute. 2 bad i cant really go on it since the videos freeze my computer. gay ass piece of sht. ( exhale ) 4give me for my profane manner. newho`s check her page out. ur gonna love it ;D ( link below )

I'd rather be turning heads than raising eyebrows

2008-07-12T19:33:00.000-04:00

mars dippin down on u hoes ! :)

so quick update. i gotta call a&f & see if ive been hired ! dear fckn god. how long does it take to call someone ?! smh. but neways so im going bck to school shopping. & i have no fckn money to buy my fckn uggs or my guccis. im highly pissed. cause i anticipated some money in my account by this summer. but if it wsnt for the damn summons me & my bf got, i wouldnt be so broke right now !!! this is horrible ! & my school check dont come til august. this is such a bitch yo ! ( sigh ).

my day wsnt so cool. 1st i wake up at like 10:30. the usual i aint do sht 2day. but stay home. i washed my hair 2day. & thats it. wish i could go out. but i cant. =/ its like prison living here. & if i do go out, my mother is calling me constantly as soon as i get off the train. so thats 1 reason i dont wanna go out. but yea this is my usual routine i get up around 11 or 12pm, eat, clean over things thats already clean, watch tv a bit, argue with my stupid mother cause she knows nothing, & sit my ass at the computer until 12 or sometimes 1am. so i usually do that everyday !! which is y i want a job so im not stuck home 24/7. & its funny how my mom tells me to ask her if i wanna go out to the movies with my friends when 1) she hates all the ppl i hang out with. she talks mad sht about them like she knows them & 2) i have a 5pm curfew. so how can i go out to the movies when ur telling me 4pm is too late to go out? i mean how contradicting can u be. & also 3) half my friends work. the other half r to lazy to even leave their homes. so yea. i have fcked up friends as well. cause how can i have a friend who claims to be my bff but yet they wont take the time of day to hang out with me? like r u serious?

but it dont matter. im not allowed to go out unless my mother has met them & they've come to the house. & she expects to meet their family. like wtf?! these ppls parents work. they're not stuck home talkin sht about their kids to other ppl & whining about life & smoking up 2 packs of cigarettes everyday ! smh. im done.

mars signing off on u hoes ! ;D

fashion frenzy

2008-07-10T18:49:00.000-04:00

so starting this wk hopefully i will begin posting topics on fashion & music & of course the hottest sites. :) hopefully i can make a hot ass layout til then. cuz this sht is looking booty ! lmao. but newho i wanna give a shout out to my boo chef ! at randumbmiami. check her page out :) ya gone like it. & also check out my bbys music page www.myspace.com/6lu3. he needs all the support he can get :) so yea. this update isnt as interesting. but tomorrow's blog will. :)

new posting yay!

2008-07-05T22:49:00.000-04:00

so ive decided to update cuz i havent done so in awhile. =/ my 4th of july wkend is going ok. could be better. but im super excited but nervous for tuesday. i have an interview with a&f ( abercrombie & fitch ). i lovee that store :D god i fell in love when i walked on 5th ave. its definitely my place. but all u see r white ppl lmao. blond hair. blue eyes. when i walked into the a&f office, u saw tall skinny white & lightskinned black girls. i got nervous but i looked right. my cousin ws the one who didnt look right lmao. since she wore sneakers & a tee shirt. i had the whole look dwn & i didnt even know. lol. but im bringing my bby to the interview. so i can feel comfortable enough to do what i gotta do. i applied for model. u dont really model but u stand at the entrance & u greet ppl. i mean thats easy lol. & u getting paid $11 an hr to do so? pfft ! lmao. well newho from my lst entry with that smut, dirty lookin hoe skrilla, blue tells me that pic ws takin 2 yrs ago. & stuff. that ws when she ws his left hand btch. & so um yea. but idc nemore. im getting his chain ! :D well the smaller one. so u already know. taking OD pix lol haha. but yea um i think thats all for now. i hope every1ne had a gd 4th of july & hope ya enjoy ur wkend. wish me luck on the interview :)

new layout soon

2008-07-01T14:11:00.000-04:00

as the title says new layout soon. yea ima hook this sht up !! :) lol. no need to cmnt if u dont wanna.

main attraction.

2008-06-28T20:35:00.000-04:00

so thats the name for my clothing line. im totally excited about it. ive already started on some designs. my bf is doing the mens line. : ) im hoping by the end of summer i have shirts done ! & when thats over im starting on jeans. : ) this is exciting lmao. u dont understand. ive been wanting to do this for so long & im actually doing it. as i type, im doing the logo as well. i have a few made. maybe tomorrow ill post them on here. im never on this joint. its nothing like xanga. =/ lol but atleast i know a few ppl on here. im thinking of making a new blog though. this name is irritating me now. but i might just keep it for now. lets see how it goes. my wkend started off pretty gd. i hung out with my babes yesterday. but we had to pay a summons we both got. im glad to have paid it & got it over with. it ws on my brain for so long. gosh ! i ws horrified to get a ticket. i mean me?! come on ! lmao. but nah it ws ok. just pay the $60 & they clear it. : ) so yea i just know im gonna hear it from my mother when my bank statement comes. i mean its my money but she likes to monitor my every move. like wtf?! smfh ! just cant wait to move out cuz i wont have to worry bout her nemore. dear god ! neways. so im dieing to get my louie v. bag. but i think im opt out & get my marc jacobs & wait for my lv bag til dec. : ) it'll be my own bday/xmas gift for me ! hehe. i think my moms taking me on a cruise. i hope so. cant stand the winter lol. but yes kids i think this is all im gonna type. nothing interesting happens when im home all day. =/ this is def the life of a noclass citizen. blah !!

moreless .

2008-06-20T23:31:00.000-04:00

2nd time on this thing. i made one of these 2 yrs ago. or i think 3. not sure. w/e. ive been blogging for about 5 years now. i ws on xanga. livejournal. & a bunch of other blogsites. but xanga was the most i kept up with. lets see. the reason behind my name. killthehype. i chose this cuz 1) wackness ws already taken & 2) cuz i think nowadays ppl are taken things a lil far & hyping things up that will die in about a month & they'll look stupid cuz they ws so amped for the moment that later on they'll realize what a waste of money & energy they brought upon the situation. like for instance. the kanye frames. i remember they gave those out when u copped the kanye album. & wsnt even poppin then. but since they coming out in fruity pebble looking colors & glowing in the drk, ppl just cant seem to not want them. i mean u cant even see in them u know. ur wearing them cuz ur "tryin to look cool". u & maybe 85% of the urban population is rocking the same thing. u wearing them is not making u no different. another hype case is the retro/80s phase. i call it a phase cuz within another yr this sht will die down. but newho. half the ppl who r doing the 80s look werent even born the 80s. if so they were born in 1989. 75% of them dont even know what the true 80s look ws. cuz u wearing bright tight leggings. a fanny pack & printed tunics or tees dont make u nething. i ws born in the 80s. i ws born in 1989. in dec. so i think that clearly makes me a 90s bby. since im 5 days aways from jan. 1st. but god my era is surely the 90s cuz thats where i grew up in. nothing more. nothing less. i dont believe in trying to follow trends. its not what originality & individuality are. sure i rock my skinnys with flats, sneakers, & heels. but i change my look & make something thats me. i dont need a trend to define me. my label is me ! & always gonna be me ! so i guess this is it. nothing more to say. i plan to keep posting. just help me out & cmnt i guess. :)

live, love, life, peace.

MELi MARTiNEZ ;